The Space Between

Fire …

What makes a fire burn
is space between the logs,
a breathing space.

Too much of a good thing,
too many logs
packed in too tight
can douse the flames
almost as surely
as a pail of water.

So building fires
requires attention
to the spaces in between,
as much as to the wood.

When we are able to build open spaces in the same way
we have learned to pile on logs,
then we come to see how it is fuel,
and the absence of fuel together,
that make fire possible.

We only need to lay a log lightly from time to time.

A fire grows simply because the space is there,
with openings in which the flame that knows just how it wants to burn
can find its way.

— Judy Brown from Teaching with Fire: Poetry That Sustains the Courage to Teach


Image by F.A. Mac Donald, Inverness, Nova Scotia, Canada (Own work) [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons

A Central Place of Leisure

My friend Audrey shared a quote with me recently, and it has stayed with me for weeks. The quote is from Brother David Steindl-Rast:

"The heart is a leisurely muscle. It differs from all other muscles. How many push-ups can you make before the muscles in your arms and stomach get so tired that you have to stop? But your heart muscle goes on working for as long as you live. It does not get tired, because there is a phase of rest built into every single heartbeat. Our physical heart works leisurely. And when we speak of the heart in a wider sense, the idea that life-giving leisure lies at the very center is implied. Never to lose sight of that central place of leisure in our life would keep us youthful. Seen in this light, leisure is not a privilege but a virtue. Leisure is not the privilege of a few who can afford to take time, but the virtue of all who are willing to give time to what takes time - to give as much time as a task rightly takes."

And so, my eternal fascination with the capacity of the human heart is, once again, activated.

On a physical level, our heart does the work of keeping us alive, responding to what's needed in the moment—be that a rapid rate increase when we make a mad dash to pull our child out of danger, or slowing way down when we lay in our bed at night to sleep. The heart makes these adjustments constantly, without fail. Lub dub. Lub dub.

On an energetic level, it is the connecting point between ourselves and those around us, actively sending and receiving communication via the large electromagnetic field it generates. Read my last blog post, Listen to Your Heart, for more information on this amazing function of our hearts.

On an emotional level, it is where we feel our connection with others. Where we feel love. There’s a reason that the universal symbol for love is a drawing of the heart.

The heart does a lot. What fascinates me about the above quote is the very simple, yet powerful, observation that the heart does all of this work, yet it never gets tired. I never really thought about it, I guess. How many push-ups can I do before my arms get tired? Umm....maybe one! But my heart beats regularly, all day, every day. How much do we all take this function for granted, never realizing that our heart is working, non-stop and tirelessly, all day every day?

The idea that the heart is able to work in this way is because there is a phase of rest built into every single heartbeat is a key understanding. Even when demand is high and our heart rate increases, there’s still a phase of rest between each beat.

From my days as a nurse in the Coronary Care Unit, I know what happens when the rest period between heartbeats is compromised. When the beats become an arrhythmia, when they come so close together or erratically that the heart can’t recover, it can’t rest between beats. Chest pain ensues. Soon my patient would be gasping for air. If untreated, the muscle in the heart became damaged; ultimately, I witnessed patients who died when the phase of rest between heartbeats was not allowed. We had to interrupt the arrhythmia, with drugs or electroshock, to re-set the normal rhythm of the heart. To re-initiate the rest period.

So, as we can see, the rest period is essential for life. Which begs the question: is it not also essential for us to have this leisurely sense of rest between the “beats” of our day-to-day lives? Is that what can keep us energized, and vital, and engaged? Do we need a re-set in our lives, to open space for leisurely rest between the beats?

Brother Steindl-Rast closes his quote with words that may just be the key to finding this sweet spot, the place of life-giving leisure in our madcap daily lives. He says:

“Leisure is not the privilege of a few who can afford to take time, but the virtue of all who are willing to give time to what takes time - to give as much time as a task rightly takes."

When we are engaged in the mad press of life, pushing hard to get everything done, thinking about what we have to do next as we’re talking with someone or engaging in a task...we’re barely able to keep up, it seems. No rest between the beats. Chest pain ensues, right? Gasping for air, sometimes. If we slow down...do only what’s in front of us...give time to what takes time...what a different experience life can be!

A few simple suggestions, things I’ve been implementing in my life:

• Stop multi-tasking! When talking on the phone, step away from the computer, the dishes, the sweeping or straightening up. Be present with whoever is on the other end of the phone. Put down your smart phone during dinner, or while you’re driving. Enjoy the leisure of doing one thing at a time.

• Avoid mind-creep! Mind creep happens when I’m thinking about the next thing I have to do as I’m completing the thing I have to do right now...OMG, can this amp up the rat-race! Focus on what you’re doing in the moment, and politely dismiss intruding thoughts with “I’ll get to you later. I promise.”

• Finish the job! Often, when I feel pressed, I am tempted to only do what absolutely must be done right now, with the intention of finishing later (what, when I have more time?? Seriously?). What I’ve come to realize is that the few moments it takes to really finish the job actually saves me time and stress later. I don’t have to add it to my list of things to do—instead, I can cross it off my list! Often when we think we’re saving minutes, we’re only making things worse. Complete the beat, to use the heart metaphor, before you start the next beat. Otherwise, your rhythm can become chaotic, and before you know it, chest pain ensues...and then you can’t breathe...get the picture?

• Keep your eye on the ball! To use Steindl-Roth’s words: “Never to lose sight of that central place of leisure in our life would keep us youthful.” Holding this sense of leisure as a central place in your life can not only keep you youthful, it can dramatically improve the quality of the time you spend accomplishing the tasks in your life, and your relationships with the people you interact with, and your sense of self-love...and so much more.

We can learn a lot about living a peaceful life from the wisdom of our own bodies. Listen to your heart. Learn from its wisdom.

It’s a worthwhile course of study.

Heartbeat image #1 from http://pixshark.com/heart-beats-png.htm

Heartbeat image #2 from http://stuffled.com/vector/love-heartbeat/

Listen to Your Heart

Listen to your heart...Lead with your heart...Follow your heart...we've all heard these phrases, usually in the form of sage wisdom and words of advice from friends and family. But these words are much more than just a sentimental notion. They actually represent something we're doing all the time - whether we're aware of it or not.

Whether you're looking into ancient earth wisdom or the new science of quantum physics, the heart is truly the center of our universe. You need to look no further than our own physical body. We cannot live without our heart; it is constantly working in the background, pumping literal lifeblood for all of the organs that sustain our bodies. But let's look a little deeper at the role the heart plays in our energetic bodies. How it connects us - not only with our divine essence, but with each other.

To understand this connection, we need to begin by understanding the energy that lies underneath and between the matter that makes us up. It's called the Zero Point Field or the Quantum Field in the science world; collective consciousness, the Holy Spirit, or Chi by theologians; it's the life force flowing through the universe, present and active in every moment, whether or not we can see it or are aware of it. It is the space from which all matter takes form. In her ground-breaking book, The Field, Lynn McTaggart describes research that shows the particles which make up matter are actually little "knots" of energy that briefly emerge and then disappear back into the underlying field, rapidly flickering between the manifest and the unmanifest state. A teacher of mine, RainbowHawk, referred to this space between the manifest and unmanifest as the shimmering. We are in constant contact with this underlying ocean of energy; in fact, we are constantly being created from it, emerging from it, every second of every day. Oh yeah - one more thing. At the very essence of these particles, they found photons. Light. So you could say, we're made up of light.

Photo by Nikolai Romanski of EGRD.net

At the risk of completely geeking out on you, there's one more point I want to bring forward about the field. This underlying of ocean of energy provides the stuff of creation for ALL of creation. We don't have our little domain that we draw from; we draw from the collective field of energy. We share that pool of energy with each and every other being, from human to rock to chair. We truly are connected with each other and all of creation. As the particles in this field come into contact with another, they pick up information, in the form of energy coding, about the other. In essence, the field is constantly imprinting a record of everything that ever was, Vast. Unlimited. Wisdom. Stored in the particles within our cells, the stuff that makes us up. Whoa.

So what does any of this have to do with listening to your heart? Well, heart cells are not only unique in their ability to pulsate and send blood coursing through our bodies to sustain life. They also generate a powerful electromagnetic field (there's that "f" word again...) that radiates out some twelve to fifteen feet beyond our physical body and is powerful enough to light a small electric light bulb! Who knew? This powerful electromagnetic field exists within the larger quantum or collective field, and research by the folks at HeartMath Institute shows us that our heart actually provides us with direct and constant access to that larger field.

The bottom line is, our hearts are the channel for this energy field, for the vast unlimited wisdom that we're constantly swimming in. Our hearts know the truth. Not the brain-truth, but the truth-truth. Because we are in human form, this energy/information gets routed through our brains - that's how we create an understanding, a physical experience, an emotional response to the energy that creates us. As Joseph Chilton Pearce states in his book The Biology of Transcendence, "Brain and body are fashioned to translate from the heart's frequency field the information for building our unique, individual world experience."

The heart, in addition to pumping our lifeblood and being a massive generator of and conduit for electromagnetic energy, is also a sort of a brain in it's own right. The ancient, earth wisdom traditions knew this. They speak of the Heart Mind, that place of deep inner knowing of truth. Not only personal truth, but truth that benefits the whole. The collective field. The study of neurocardiology has estimated that more than half of the cells of the heart are neurons, which function much like the neurons in our brain. In fact, the heart neurons are in direct communication with the brain.The brain receives this communication from the heart - this full, unlimited, vast (and probably completely overwhelming) ocean of information and energy, and then it filters it based on our beliefs and life experiences to only allow in that which we can handle. So yes, we're listening to our heart all of the time. And, truth is, we're often limiting the input from the collective field that comes to us via our heart by the complex filtering process taking place in our brains.

So if we want to have full access to the energies of our heart, we have to get past the bouncer at the door in our brain. To consciously listen to our heart, we have to find our way through the censors of our fears, our limiting beliefs, our pre-conceived ideas about the nature of the universe. Our brain serves some amazing functions. It allows us to have a physical and emotional experience of the energies moving through us. It selectively screens the vast, unbounded potential that exists in the field around us - which would likely overwhelm us if our brains would not determine what has relevance and what does not. And, it utilizes our life experiences to develop that screening ability. Our brain can open us to the vast potential, or slam the door shut to allow the smallest trickle to make it's way through.

We can adjust the screening mechanism by altering our beliefs, literally opening our minds to all potential, working through our fears. Even the tiniest change in this neural current exchange between the heart and the brain can bring a dramatic change to what we access from the field and, consequently, our experience of life.

Now that's a journey worth taking, isn't it?

So how do we work with this screening mechanism in our day to day life? There are so many different ways - anything that slows us down, gives us a moment to shift out of the rat-race that exists in our heads into the quiet space of the heart. The important thing is to find what works for you! Maybe it's prayer, or meditation, or a walk in nature. Maybe it's baking bread, or reading a book to your child - or yourself. Maybe it's as simple as realizing that we live inside of this field, are made up of this field, in fact. Maybe it's as simple as visualizing the images above, of how our own electromagnetic field radiates out from us. Twelve feet! Step into that image in your mind. Feel the connection with the larger field, with the whole. Simply take a moment to consciously shift your focus from your brain-mind to your heart-mind.

All we're really doing when we take these kinds of steps is touching in with what is - and always has been - happening all of the time. Bringing our conscious intention to the process allows us to have an experience of that connection. And it's a great experience to have.

A great way to connect in with yourself. And so much more.

A great way to follow your heart.

'Tis the Season to....Receive??

Without a doubt, this time of year is about giving. Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa - each of these holidays hold gift-giving as a part of their ritual celebrations. We spend weeks, even months, seeking out the perfect gifts for our loved ones; we host parties; we attend parties - there's a seemingly unstoppable outflow of energy during the holidays. And many of us experience an imbalance in ourselves with this constant outflow. If we're not careful, our "well" can run dry.

We're well-schooled in this society on how and what to give. But what about receiving? Those we love are seeking out the perfect gift for us, hosting parties for us, coming to the parties we host...are you in touch with consciously receiving these expressions of love? Or are you in the habit of saying a quick thank-you as you move on to your next act of giving?

Graciously receiving from someone allows them to express their feelings for you. It opens the way for the giver to experience the pleasure of giving freely, from the heart. Have you ever had that experience? Of giving something to someone - maybe as simple as a compliment, or slipping a few bills into the bell-ringer's pot at the mall, or maybe a gift that you spent a great deal of time and energy selecting - and having that gift received openly and fully? It feels pretty incredible, doesn't it. Like it opens the floodgates in the heart, allowing your gift to flow with love, because it is being received.

And, graciously receiving from someone allows us to really take it in - not only the gift, but the love, the intention behind the giving. It can go a long way toward filling our "well," toward keeping us in balance. And when our well is full, we have so much more to give others. This quote from Brene Brown sums it up beautifully: "Until we can receive with an open heart, we are never really giving with an open heart." 

Sound advice for this holiday season, right? But let's dig a little deeper here. Because the art of receiving is about so much more than just consciously saying thank you for a gift.

Let's slow down for a minute...really sink into what it means to hold a balance between the energy you're sending out into the world and the energy you are receiving. Take a breath in...and slowly breathe out.

Now again....breathe in. And slowly breathe out.

Just that simple act is an act of receiving.

I've been thinking a lot about receiving these past weeks. What I've realized is that receiving is about being open. Being still. Accepting what is present. Listening.

I've realized that when I'm reaching for something, striving for a goal, my energy is moving out and away from me. Hmm. I thought that's how you achieved your dreams, right? You strive for them.

Image from MandM's 3/4 Marvellous Minis

How about this for a different experience: stop reaching. Be still. Breathe. Open your heart. And listen. Feel the energy all around you. Allow it to fill you - which is different than pulling it in! Allow it to fill you. Receive the unlimited love and grace that is available to you at all times.

What? Unlimited love and grace is available to us at all times. Really??

Indeed, this is so. From the book The Field, by Lynne McTaggart:

"In the quantum world, quantum fields are not mediated by forces but by exchange of energy, which is constantly redistributed in a dynamic pattern...Fluctuations in the atomic world amount to a ceaseless passing back and forth of energy like a ball in a game of pingpong. This energy exchange is analagous to loaning someone a penny: you are a penny poorer, he is a penny richer, until he returns the penny and the roles reverse...Every exchange of every virtual particle radiates energy...when you add up all the particles of all varieties in the universe constantly popping in and out of being, you come up with a vast, inexhaustible energy source..."

There it is, at the micro-level, in the very stuff  we are made of: the balance between giving and receiving. Energy, on a universal level, is always seeking balance. And so, when we find balance within ourselves, we come into a sort of resonance with this unlimited source of energy that is available to us.

To find that resonance, we simply must stop the constant out-flow in our lives and allow some in-flow. Otherwise it's like trying to pour ketchup into a running garden hose - you're not going to get too far with receiving that ketchup, are you. And when you get right down to it, what's life without ketchup?

So open your heart. Receive fully and completely this season, and always. Make it a practice to stop for a moment, take a breath in, and receive the love and grace that surrounds you in every moment. Maybe people giving us gifts serves only as a reminder of the fact that LIFE is a gift. Each and every moment. Let it in.

Sending you all much love - be sure to receive it fully!

Zardoya

Open your Christmas Presence early - and often - this year!

‘Tis the month before Christmas, and where is your heart?

Is it spinning in the gotta-get-the-perfect-gift, make-this-the-best-Christmas-ever rush of commercialized insanity that’s become a sort of sick norm? Is it aching with the loss of a parent, spouse, or loved one who is no longer a part of your life, and will be sorely missed over the holidays? Maybe your heart is reaching back to the Ghosts of Christmas’ past, lost in the memories (ecstatic or painful) you wish to re-create…or avoid.

Maybe you’re asking yourself right now “My heart? Where’s my heart? Who’s got time to think about something like that?”

If there’s such a thing as a prime time for becoming stressed out, over-extended, and disenchanted, it’s probably the time between Thanksgiving and Christmas. Love them or hate them, the holidays are intense. Asking yourself Where is my heart? may just be the most important thing you can do this year to hold on to your sanity and actually appreciate the holidays.

Because Christmas isn’t really about presents. It’s more about Presence. And being present is about being in your heart. Appreciating exactly what’s right here, right now. It really doesn’t matter what the circumstance is - even some of the suckiest situations, when viewed from a state of heart-felt presence, have their own beauty and grace. Really!

So, I’m encouraging you to open your Christmas Presence early this year. Early and often.

But, you ask, how can I become present when I'm in the thick of it? What can I do??

When you feel yourself spinning out with all that needs to be done, notice what it feels like in your body. Stop - even just for a moment - and breathe. In that stolen moment lies presence, and in presence lies choice. What can you do later, or delegate? Does it all really have to be done? Why are you doing it? And, maybe just take a break!

If you’re feeling the loss of a loved one, grieving their absence and knowing that Christmas will never be the same without them, notice the feeling. Then Stop - even just for a moment - and breathe. In that stolen moment lies presence, and in presence lies choice. Maybe there’s a way to honor those feelings of loss, and all the Christmases you spent with your loved one. What is needed? Maybe it's time to create new rituals to celebrate in a completely different way.

Notice when your mind wanders into the world of Christmas Past, and Stop - even just for a moment - and breathe. In that stolen moment lies presence, and in presence lies choice. Feel the memory, let it wash over you, and let it go. Ask yourself what is needed to create a meaningful Christmas in this time, right here, right now. You will never re-create an experience from the past. Not really. And when we try, we rob ourselves of the present.

You'll notice a common theme here: Stop. Breathe. Make a choice. That's really all there is to it. When we step into the present moment, we are at choice to create exactly the experience we want to create. I know it doesn't feel that way - it may not even feel possible! But I encourage you to try it. Even the smallest amount of presence can shift your experience of life a lot.

I'm wishing you a beautiful holiday season, filled with love and appreciation for this incredible life we are living.

Heart image credit to vectorarts.net

The Eye of the Storm

Have you noticed that life is running at high speed these days? Not just the small stuff, the everyday busyness we all face of work and family and mowing the lawn, and keeping the house at least mostly clean. No, I'm talking about the big stuff, too. Off the top of my head, I can think of five people in my immediate circle of family and friends recently diagnosed with or dying from cancer - ranging in age from 31 to 85. People are being asked to work harder and longer hours at their jobs. The TV news is filled with horror stories of mass shootings, missing or murdered women, wars on the verge, foiled terrorist plots, economic crisis narrowly averted...this all swirls around us like a hurricane in motion, threatening to pull us into a chaotic mess of fear and despair. I hear people talking about feeling as if they are spinning, sometimes out of control, in their lives. Do you sometimes feel like that? Flying around from one thing to another, always just a little bit late, rushed, and harried?

Years ago, a teacher I studied with by the name of Nadia Eagles, spoke words along these lines: What we notice directly determines what we miss. So, what does that mean? It's simple, right? When things get tough, just focus on something else? Well, that's a fine thought. I'm thinking it'll be pretty hard not to notice my friends and family with cancer. I'm pretty sure that's not what she meant.

She was not talking about ignoring what goes on around us. In fact, she was talking about exactly the opposite of ignoring what goes on around us. She spoke of noticing it all. Every bit of it. The moment we notice a feeling and label it as "bad," we completely miss any other aspects of that experience. Feelings are not usually one-dimensional. They are rich, and subtle, and often multi-layered. Even the most intense and painful feelings quite often bring us to a new understanding on some level. 

What if we broadened our view, and really learned to see life's experiences as simply that - Life's Experiences. What if we noticed everything about each experience we have - and our feelings related to it?

I've been a nurse for 30 years, and have worked with patients and their families in all phases of life. I helped bring new life into the world for hundreds of happy and excited families. I've also helped women through the tragedy of delivering a stillborn baby. I've been there for unexpected, traumatic deaths, and equally unexpected miraculous recoveries; for long, drawn-out "life support" used on dying patients, and for transitions from life that were filled with unspeakable grace. Some of these folks were only able to see the "bad" in their situations. However, there were many who live in my memory today because they were so present with what they were experiencing. They found beauty in the most difficult of times. Their lives were enriched because they were open to the truth of what was happening to them.

What I know to be true is that this life is made up of millions of different kinds of experiences. We, as humans, have emotional range that is vast. Whether we label our experiences and emotions as good, bad, or ugly fundamentally doesn't matter a bit. We're going to have them. It is simply life in action, and if we can find a way to show up for ALL of it, then we can discover beauty in literally any situation. Yes, I did say any.

So, all of that said - what does it mean to show up for these experiences? How do we become present to all aspects life? Another great teacher I've had the fortune of studying with, Wind Eagle, teaches how to become open to the stillness. This is a powerful practice, and with some conscious intention, you can build the skill to drop into the stillness any time, any place, under any circumstances. Really! All you need is your body and your breath. Any you have both of these along with you, no matter where you go.

It's like finding the eye of the hurricane. Sure, the wind is whipping around you, blowing everything and everybody in its path all over the place. However, at the center of every hurricane is the eye. The still place. No wind. No chaos. Just stillness. 

When centered in that eye, nothing can blow you off course. Nature provides us with a beautiful teaching here, right? What if we were able to stay in the eye of our personal hurricane - able to see all that is going on, a 360-degree view? Able to take it all in. And because you're tethered to the quiet place that lives inside of you, you're not sucked into it.

Hurricane photo credit - NASA Goddard Space Flight Center

How do you find this quiet place? And how do you hang onto it when the fur starts flying?

One of the most easy and effective ways is to start building bridges in your heart and your mind to times when you had peak experiences of happiness, peace, calm, and connection with the very core of yourself. Sometimes people experience this when they are in nature, or in church, or while they are creating some item of beauty. Remember vividly what this experience felt like. Or, go out and create some new experiences! Focus on really getting the sensations and feelings locked into your body. Like Happy Gilmore said in the movie:  go to your happy place! 

It's when we vividly remember these experiences in our bodies that we can begin to use them as a bridge back to the experience any time or any place. It really is as simple as remembering the state. Imagining the state. It's been said that the body, the emotions, can't tell the difference between a real experience and a vividly imagined experience. We're relying on that idea here.

Then, when you find yourself starting to spin with the hurricane of life, take a deep breath and re-create those physical sensations in your body. Visualize the eye of the hurricane, and go there. Don't under estimate the power of this activity. With practice, you can drop into a state of openness and quiet with just a few breaths. No one needs to know you're doing anything at all. I used this countless times in meetings when it was either that or get up and start banging my head on the wall. Which is almost never a good idea during a business meeting. I've used it when someone was up in my face yelling at me. It works. I promise, if you practice this technique, it works. 

So have fun with it. Create your own little happy-world that you can access whenever you want. It might not take the painful experiences away from your life. Likely won't. But when you live from this strong, quiet core within yourself, you are in a much better position to fully experience whatever life puts in front of you. 

And that, my friends, is the Peace Lane.

Spring Emergenc(y)

I've been struck by the idea of emergence lately...perhaps triggered by the extraordinary, delayed spring here in Minnesota, and my longing for the emergence of the warm sun and some green-ness and flowers. However, I'm thinking it's more about an inner process I’ve been going through over the course of this past year or so. I’ve been deep into figuring out how to express myself from the authentic core of my being (this, apparently, is what can happen when one enters her fifties). Whatever the cause, emergence is up for me. I find myself turning it around and around in my mind and heart, noticing all kinds of ways emergence emerges in each day.

What I'm aware of is the challenge of allowing that comes with emergence. Allowing often means slowing down, listening carefully. Even...gasp...waiting! We (and I mean the collective "we" here) don't like to wait! In our society, it's much more common - and in many ways, more comfortable - to treat everything as if it were an emergenc-y! We want it right now, as soon as we're aware of the desire.

Okay, if I'm going to be honest here, I can replace the "we" in the preceding paragraph with "I." Historically, I've been the one making things happen. Make the plan, work the plan. And what I've seen happen over and over in my life is that I find myself exactly where the plan led me, but realize that it's not really where I want to be at all! So how do I figure out where I want to be??

Recently my friend Molly shared a recording on the topic with me, and it has been turning in me for weeks. The speaker was Derek Rydall, and he did an interview with Kristin Howe from the Manifest Everything Now program. His take on manifestation really spoke to me, and is very much in alignment with what I've learned from my teachers over the years about the flow of energy in this universe. Rydall makes the bold statement that self-improvement is an oxymoron, and that the obsessive drive we have to improve ourselves actually takes us further from true fulfillment and covers up our original perfection - and often leaves us feeling more broken than we were when we began our quest for self-improvement! He claims we are already the thing we're seeking - that we have it all within us, all potential just waiting to be activated by our attention and intention.

Wow. Pretty heady stuff. But is it?

The ancient wisdom traditions I've studied also speak of emergence, although the languaging is somewhat different. Both the Mayan and the Egyptian Huna traditions I've studied teach of the perfection of the human spirit - that we are born with our full potential intact, like a blueprint in the genetic code of our cells. In fact, the word Huna means hidden treasure - that divine kernel of perfection that resides in each of us. In each cell of each one of us. Like the genetic blueprint that makes an acorn into an enormous oak tree, we are programmed to become exactly what and who we are. We don’t find the oak tree taking courses on self improvement, striving to have branches that are as beautiful as all of the other oak trees. In nature, original perfection is simply expressed.

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So if it's all right there inside of me, why can't I just express it already?

Could it be because I, like so many, treat expression like an emergenc-y? Try to make it happen, rather than let it happen? Or because I’ve been on a 25+ year journey of self improvement? Striving to be a better, more slender, more beautiful version of the absolutely amazing, perfect human being that was born 52 years ago?

I am learning to allow life to unfold. And what I'm discovering is that it makes for real, true living. It's much, much easier than forcing things. I have a level of contentment that I have never had before. All of the striving and pushing I used to do left me feeling as if I'd never "get there." What a revelation to see that I'm already there! Every day, I'm already there. 

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 I gotta say, I love my fifties. If that’s what it takes – age, experience, wisdom – to move out of that constant striving for something better, then I’m grateful for this phase of my life.

What is trying to emerge from your genetic blueprint, the soul of your being? How would it feel to just allow life to happen? To know the perfection that is in each day? These are questions worth pondering...